Jaser's POZ Blog

Perhaps, perhaps.

I had my very first job interview today. I think it went pretty well. I was nervous as fuck and she asked me some simple questions that I had the hardest time figuring out. They're so awkward. But she was super sweet to me and she seemed to like me a lot so I have a good feeling about it. She liked a lot of my answers, she told me outright. Haha. I'm supposed to get a call within the week.

It'd be really cool to get that job. Oh my God. Save up more money for surgery. Help pay off college because ohmigawd I was accepted into the college that I wanted to go to, so that's really exciting also. :[. I'm so overwhelmed right now that I don't even know what to do. I have so much going on in my life I barely have any time at all. Inbetween schoolwork, whipping up crocheted stuff for my orders, spending time with my boyfriend and my friends... it's nuts. I don't know how I'm supposed to keep up with all of this.

I really just want to be successful and there is ALL of this pressure on me to be able to juggle everything and I'm really scared that I'm going to fail at it. FAIL EPICALLY.

Buuut... yeah. That's pretty much it. Hopefully my dad and I will be moving back into our place in a couple of weeks when they finish the renovations. Fingers crossed. We're having a lot of money problems because of our lack of income so things are really hard right now. My dad is afraid he's going to have to stop his treatment in order to start working again so we can have an income and that's a really, really stupid idea. I know my uncle would let us stay with him as long as we needed to, if only my dad weren't so stubborn. Christ.

I ordered a bunch of books on Amazon with the Christmas money I was anonymously given online. I made a post about it in the forums and it's a long story (well, not really). Some stuff I'm really looking forward to reading, though. It should be here in the next week or so. I'm REALLY excited about it and I still have 100 bucks left. God, that was such a nice thing - whoever did that for me. I'm still baffled by it.

I treated my dad to breakfast this morning before the interview at the Waffle Lair and he seemed to appreciate it. :]. Started my day off really good. Then after the interview my friends met me at the mall. It was really sweet. I spent a few hours with them and just chilled out and stuff and I'm going to be seeing them again later tonight. I adore all of my friends. I don't know what I'd do without them. They are so supportive and funny and nice and total enablers when it comes to my procrastination habit, hahaha. I am SO ridiculously lucky.

I'm in a great mood lately. Things seem to be looking up. I feel great and I think I look great (hehe) and life is pretty alright. :]

- Jase.