Jaser's POZ Blog

I'm still here! :D

Things have been ~*INSANE*~ (yes, the asterisks and tildes are completely necessary). I've officially finished my senior year of highschool, I'm enrolled in classes for the fall at my college (changed my major from Secondary Ed in English to straight English, by the way) and I have officially set up all of my plans to make this summer as eventful as humanly possible.

I honestly finished up my last few lessons without a moment to spare as they were all due in today or else I wouldn't be graduating. My graduation date is set for a couple weeks from now. I'm nervous and I don't known why. It just doesn't seem real to me yet I suppose. I'm so used to being the baby in my group of friends and people I know and suddenly I'm not. Suddenly I'm practically an adult. Suddenly I have all these responsibilities. Suddenly I can't ask my mom to order pizza for me. What the fuck.

Also, another exciting thing is I will have officially been medically transitioning for a year at the end of June as that is when I started testosterone.

I have a yard sale this weekend, on Thursday I'll be travelling down to Philly by myself for a tranny conference (scared!) and at the end of next month I'll be going to a convention. EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING TOO FAST. But I am determined to enjoy this summer as much as possible, especially now that classes are done. God that was torture.

I've been doing a lot of reading and writing again in my spare time. I'm glad because I used to do both constantly and I sort of fell away from myself for a little while due to stress, but that's really where I am most comfortable. Also - music. Pandora.com is my best friend, by the way. I've rediscovered my Nick Cave obsession.

Sorry for the lack of detail but I'm actually running out the door in like a half hour. D:

I'm such a silly mouse. :/

I went to a fair with my sister yesterday (I ALSO DISCOVERED MY LOVE OF HULA HOOPS THERE, BTW!) and there was one of those awful little side games where they give away life animals as prizes. I know I shouldn't support them by giving them my money, but I felt so bad for the little goldfish there and I knew that ALL of them that went home with anyone weren't going to live. I knew I could give at least one or two of them a good chance. :/ Wound up winning two of them, one died this morning, but I still have the other and I'm looking right now to try and find someone in the area that has a nice pond at home that I could put him in so he'd be able to live out his whole fishy life and grow into a great big carp.

Hoping someone gets back to me by tomorrow as I'm not sure how long he'll make it if not. :( Sigh. I always set myself up for heartache with these things. My conscience wouldn't allow me to do anything else though. I'm such a homo.

It's just ungodly humid right now. I can't stand it. Heat I can deal with, humidity I cannot. I love the sun but the moisture in the area needs to just go away now.

Today I dropped a few books off at the post office for this book swap thing I do online. I had to send one to Singapore that cost me 8 bucks. Urgh. I asked the person if they could give me an extra point for having spent so much on it and I'm waiting for a response from her. Hopefully she doesn't mind, because I seriously cannot afford this shit right now and I wouldn't be doing it if I weren't addicted to books!

Tomorrow night I have a youth group meeting that I think I'm not going to go to just so I can get to bed early enough to get up early Thursday morning to prepare for my trip to Philadelphia. I have to get up at like 6 and this just isn't normal for me anymore. :P. Anyways, I'm super excited about it and I've made a list so that I don't forget anything because I ALWAYS do that. :/ If you have any ideas for anything that I may have not thought of to bring along on the trip with me that'd be awesome.

I finished the book I was reading: Temple of the Winds by Terry Goodkind. I'm pretty much a fantasy geek so I enjoyed it well enough, at least as much as any of the other books in the series, except they are just stupidly long books and bulky and hard to carry around. So, instead of going right to the next book in the series I'm going to re-read A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess because it just kicks so much ass and it's been a while since I've read it. <3. Oh, Alex - I know you're totally fucked up and fictional nonetheless, but please be my boyfriend.

I should really be cleaning my room right now. But I'm not. Oh well. :D

Hi. I will be coming into your city soon to stay for 4 days. I have a few requests, and in return I promise to be polite, law-abiding and quiet. All I ask is that no one beat me, poison me or shank me. I really think that's a fair deal. Also, I would prefer not to have anything stolen. I am short and small and I'm afraid of busses, people and peanut butter (the latter being unrelated, but honestly there are few things as terrifying as having peanut butter stuck to the roof of your mouth, just admit it).

Currently I'm packing as I won't have time to/won't feel like it when I get home tonight. It's only 2 in the afternoon and I'm already exhausted, so I'm going to want to just pass out when I get back after my meeting tonight. I'm bringing a lot of snacks. Yay, individually wrapped baggies full of Teddy Grahams, one of the few things I have been able to eat lately without getting crippling stomach pain or diarrhea, wheee.

Today I had a consultation with my mouthsurgeonperson about removing my upper two wisdom teeth, as I had the bottom two extracted a year or so ago. This fucked us up majorly as they decided they no longer want to take the insurance my mother has, but luckily we worked something out for the actual consult but they didn't tell us that wouldn't cover the new xray they had to do on my mouth, so that was quite nice of them. :[ Fucking assholes.

I also got lab work back this morning telling me that my prescription of Synthroid is still too low and this is most likely why I have been sleeping around 12 to 14 hours a day. I'm not even joking. I am unable to fall asleep at a normal time due to being unreasonably stressed out or something along those lines, so I'm not in bed until 4 am and I typically wake up for about an hour or two around noon and then sleep again until six or later. It's getting really bad. I have no energy. So hopefully an updated prescription will fix this and if not, well, I suppose we'll see about that if it happens.