Michelle's POZ Blog

You think this a current occurence? It's called infanticide. It's documented as being very common throughout history. You think it just ended and last week a few people picked it back up? Let me ask you this, seeing how you very badly misquoted from "The Crow". What makes you as a pothead much different than a crackhead? How do you rationalize that?

Yes, I am sure folks have been killing their children since the beginning of time. It is in the Bible. Forgive me for misquoting the saying from the Crow, I did say or something like that. I was not saying verbatim. And how do I rationalize being a pothead. Easy for me, do you know of anyone who smokes weed that sells themselves or their possessions? I don't. Do you know anyone who smokes weed that breaks into places to support their high? I don't. Most potheads I know including myself does nothing other than eat and chill out. I know I am burning out brain cells but I also exercise the ones I have left. I do things to stimulate my brain. And may I ask why are you so concerned about it, it's not like I am asking you to join me in smoking a blunt. Since you are so wound up on my smoking weed maybe you would consider talking to the people who make the anti-drug commercials which to me only portray the negative aspects of smoking weed. There are benefits to smoking or did you overlook that?! Maybe you should get off your moral high horse.

No, I don't know anyone who breaks into anywhere and gets high, though, if you're implying that there are no potheads who take part in criminial activity, well you'd be more than incorrect. As for you acknowledging that you kill brain cells, don't you think you can be productive on other ways, besides trying to self medicate yourself. Using your rationalization, people don't break into homes to steal "stuff" to feed thier whiskey habits, yet we still label them as alcoholics, and tell them they have a disease. I'm not anti-alcohol, anti-drug, or anti much of anything else. As such, I don't preach morality to anyone. This is your blog, you write it as a way of self expression. I read it, and now I'm commenting that you, judging from your blog, should not be calling the kettle black. As for why I'm concerened, I don't believe anyone is beyond hope.

Oh, and what are these benefits to doing drugs?

It's obvious to me that you seem to have a problem with me self medicating myself. Neither my primary doctor or my ID doctor seem to have a problem with my smoking weed, so why do you? While you seem to pass judgement on me for doing this, have you even ventured into the forums where I post? If you did, you would notice that I admitted that my smoking started out as being recreational. Now that I am poz, it keeps me eating. I have tried giving up smoking to and use Marinol but it doesn't do me any good. There is also Megace but I can't use it due to getting depo shots. As far as I know there isn't anything else out there that will help me to eat.

While I know quite a few weed smokers, the only ones I know that are breaking the law are the ones that sell it. But then that could be nipped in the bud if it was made legal.

By the way, I am being productive by sharing my views here and in the forums. And while you seem to go out your way to criticize me, I know for a fact that what I have shared of myself with others have been appreciated. I have seen this firsthand.

While I don't expect everyone to share my views on most things, you seem to want to go out of your way to challenge me. Why is that? If you are so against what I have been saying,simply stop reading my blog.

I did not say there were benefits to drugs but to smoking weed.Yeah, I know weed is considered a drug but there are other drugs out there that does much more damage than weed. It benefits people who are poz to help them to be able to eat or to fight off throwing up their meds for one. How about for glaucoma? I also saw a documentary on how smoking weed helped people though I can't think of the name of it at the moment.

And where was I calling the pot black? You condone people killing their kids? It's justified because it has been done since the beginning of time? So, I guess if your kid pisses you off, you wouldn't hesitate to throw them over a bridge or put a bullet in their head? Let's stay on the topic of my blog entry, shall we. It is amusing to me that you have so much to say but hide behind the email addy you have....JustMe

Posting your email online is a perfect way for bots to find, and then add it to a million spam lists. I ususally don't do it, unless absolutely needed. I will however share my email with you, if nothing more to prove that I'm not hiding behind anything. More importantly I'm not attacking you. It's called dialougue. I wanted to know your rationalization for what you do. As for the kettle black comment. I had to do with the fact that you were concerened with your son leaving his child at his grandmother's home because she was a drug user, but you are one yourself...I saw the irony of that. I don't want you to get defensive. If I had a blog, I'd welcome critical review of what I write.

I don't care what people choose to do with their own lives and what not, but I do wonder Michelle hearing you often complain about not having money to fix your car how you support your weed habit.

I'll be the first to admit I enjoy a finely rolled blunt sometimes, but I never would spend money on a habit before I take care of what needs to be done.

I also noticed in your writings about Rico that you had issues with him being honest. Hell the relationship was started with deceit from the very beginning and it was primarily you.

Now that's calling the kettle black if you ask me.

Before you ask me to get off my high horse which seems to be a favorite of yours might I suggest putting your priorities in order. Always complaining about not having money, but always having the "green" shows a lack of maturity and is quite selfish if you ask me.

Complaining about not being able to find a good man is not the answer either. A good man does not want a woman who sits home all day rolling blunts.

Talk about needing a dose of reality. Your living a fantasy sister..

The Coward Using Thomas's Name----

You question my honesty when I was dealing with Rico. True, I did not come out and disclose to him. I had good reason not to but I don't expect you to understand that because you were not aware of the situation. Would you disclose to someone who because he was rejected by his ex for another man who was rumored to be poz wish the sickness on his ex? For that reason alone, I chose not to disclose to him and I don't regret not disclosing to him.

As for my spending money on weed instead of getting my car fixed. I have over $1500 dollars of damage to my car and what I spend on weed does not come close to that. If you must know, I barely spend over 30 bucks on weed, it's not like I spend money everyday to smoke weed. My connect also looks out for me too, if you must know. And whatever man I do get with knows that I smoke weed including the one I am seeing now. He smokes weed too and doesn't have a problem with me smoking.

Before I even buy any weed, I make sure all bills are paid. I have even opened up a bank account and put money aside to save up on fixing my car, it may take awhile considering that I am on disability and after paying bills , it doesn't leave much left. I think I am being quite responsible. It is easy for you to condemn me not knowing what I am doing but thanks for your input. Not that it was worth anything but shows me how quick you are to judge. Have a good day.

Just Me---

You need to look over my blog entry again. It is NOT my son who left his child with his grandmother but my son's brother. My son has no children!!!! And even if he did, knowing that I smoke weed, I would not consider watching my grandchild while I was high. I think that would be irresponsible. I suggest in the future that you reread my entry before handing down judgement, it can make you look very foolish.

Now we could go back and forth on this for awhile but I choose to end it here. Once again, if you do not like what I have to say in my blog by all means stop reading it or perhaps you should start one of your own.