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Why Me?


Here I go again. Another relationship bites the dust. I am not here to talk shit on him though I could but it wouldn't make me feel any better. It would probably make me look bitter which is what I am not. Hurt, yes, who wouldn't be?  I feel more hurt because he was not man enough to tell me himself. He had to have someone else do it. I didn't think our fight warranted a break up. I am hurt because I believed all those things he said, like we would grow old together or despite our arguements we would overcome them. More importantly he said he loved me. I guess it all was a lie on his part. We have been through so much, who would've thought something so trivial would break us up. I know we both said a lot in anger but who knew it would end like this.

I am proud of myself for not shedding a tear though my heart feels like it has been ripped out my chest and stomped on. I can't help but love him, I invested two years into our relationship. I am trying to move on. I have put an ad on a few dating sites but honestly I am not feeling it. I don't want to open myself up for another man to break my heart. I know I should not hold what my ex did against the next man. But it is so hard to trust someone else after this. They say time heals all wounds and hopefully my broken heart will time.


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Comments on Michelle Kenney's blog entry "Why Me?"

So sorry to hear about your break-up Michelle:( My heart goes out to you-hugs! Your post echos the last four months of my life. I feel and understand your pain-my husband of 8 years moved to Massachussettes "to work" in March and two months later decided he didn't want to be married anymore. (I believe he felt different much longer, but never said a word except that he loved me) I understand your feelings of betrayal, of being cheated out of the future we had hoped for. I don't think it is bitterness! Feeling empty and yes, stomped on, and *sigh* having to start all over again. I am also not quite up to the task of meeting someone new and telling the medical hx.(I no longer have breasts due to breast cancer) It does get easier, they keep telling me! It has been since Memorial Day Weekend for me and I don't cry everyday now! LOL I just have to remind myself, and you, that we are strong women who will survive this heartbreak. The future is bright with lots of good things coming our way! After all, we are both survivers, and having faced death and kicked it's ass, we can do anything:) xoxo to you, Michelle
elizajane in maine

Thanks a bunch, Eliza. I am glad someone understands how I feel. I am feeling a lot of emotions and am really surprised that I have not shed one tear. I am sure they will come eventually.

Got dumped last night due to HIV status so I know rejection very well. I keep telling myself that I am better than that and I dont need or want anyone like that. Is there really someone out there for me... really beginning to wonder 21 years is a long time to wait for mr right to come along


Keep ya head up. I believe there is someone for everyone out there. The mistake is when we settle for anything. If that person could not accept your hiv status then you didn't need that person in your life in the first place.

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